How do you know when you truly love someone. Do you ever ACTUALLY love? Or is it just you telling yourself that you are?

The big question for me is HOW DO YOU KNOW?

I've thought that i'd been in love with several people. Now i look back and realise that i wasn't in love with about 98% of them...or was i? just a different level or type of love?

People say that when you're young, you dont know what love really is...but how do they know that we dont know. Hell, how do they know that THEY know? Just because it feels like love to you, doesnt mean it feels like love to another person. Their idea of love could be totally different to yours.

And this is the problem. Not every one feels love the same way, and not everyone feels the same way twice. It's different for each person, so how do you ever know that it's real? You can think that it's real, only to discover that the other person never really wanted you any way.

Or you can tell someone straight up how you feel, and they dont know how to respond. And then they take a MILLION years to decide it they want you or not, all the while there you are waiting for them, for them to potentially tell you that you're just not good enough, you just don't make the final cut. And there you are, broken hearted after all that time and effort that you put into getting this person to realise that you are the one for them, that you are good enough.

So then you have to start all over again. I mean, what exactly is the point? I know that someone cant be forced in to feeling things that just arent there, but why couldnt they figure that out sooner, instead of waiting till you were in too deep.

Here i am, sitting on the sideline while he figures out what the fuck he wants...how is that fair on me? But how do i know that i even feel the way that i think i feel? Maybe he has the right idea, carefully weighing up the pros and cons....either that or he's just too nice to turn me down and is hoping that i'll get sick of his bull shit and go away...but i've given him plenty of escape routes, and he hasnt taken them....



so WHAT THE FUCK IS HE DOING???????? *RAAGGGEEEEEEEE*